Changes

There are a lot of changes coming for me.
For one, no more obsessing about Hawk. If he calls he calls, and if not, fine.
Two, I am emptying my house of everything that I do not love or find useful.
Even my furniture. My slightly worn modern furniture goes to my ex-husband.
All the knick knacks that have no meaning to me get picked over by my sister, daughter, and mother, then into the garage sale they go.
The same with books. (gasp!!)
All the books I bought when I was trying so hard to be the perfect Christian wife and mother sit on my bookshelf giving me guilt trips every time I walk by... All those that I did not write personal notes in go into the garage sale, the others into the trash.
I will fill those emptied shelves with books that really mean something to me.
My dark wood antique bedroom set that my grandparents got me at an auction, while not my style, remains in my bedroom out of reverence to my grandparents, who were the only people on earth to show me unconditional love, but... I am going to paint it a lighter color. The dark is depressing, but the 4-poster bed may come in handy some day...;-)
I have a dining room table that has a smoky grey glass top that I love... But a tacky gold metal stand underneath that I do NOT love... I will find just the right thing to replace it...
My living room will go without furniture until I find just the right pieces.
My bookshelf waits for just the right books.
My walls for just the right art.
Nothing that I do not love..